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Ruins
01:32
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2. |
Like Moths
01:37
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Searching
Years spent searching
For places away from the bitterness
Of the screams of an unloving world
Years wasted searching
For absence
Deceived by imagination
"So ramble my soul
"My soulsick body"
"This will never stop haunting me"
"Embrace the darkness"
"Embrace this solitude"
"That place in bright dreams will never be"
I'll learn to live
In this world that hates my guts
I'll learn to live
In this world I once tried to love
No more searching, I've seen enough ruins
No more hiding, no haven left for me.
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3. |
Guilt (Endtime Stories)
03:08
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I'm watching as this world descends to hell
Lost between shades of grey
Colors are disappearing
And I'm dying with every breath that I take
Eyes blinded by greed can't see that we are nothing
And I just watch with my hands tied
The heat of end times, melting my eyes
No hope no future
Only living in fear
The bright world that's promised is not
Illuminated by sunlight
Everything dies one by one
Our world is bleeding to death
And these hands are covered in red
Where seeing eyes go blind
And hearing ears go deaf
Where feeling hearts go numb
Am I the one who's sick?
And I just watch
With my hands tied
I just watch
As we all fall
And we live with this
And we sleep with this
Comfort ourselves with utopic dreams
And we live with this
And we sleep with this
With small doses, we get addicted to misery
And i pray but no one hears
I pray, blind eyes deaf ears
I pray cause it's all that's left for me.
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"Do you hear me?"
I've been wallowing in fallacy
And now that I'm "free"
I'm left feeling empty
Cause something died in my heart
I ended up in a place I despised
Feel my faith fade into an unholy nothingness
With these chains of obscurity
Free is something I'll never be
I had this "great epiphany"
Which left me shattered in darkness, drifting silently
Echoes of my calls are only response from above
I scream at the sky but it's all empty
Like me
I need a sign, I crave for light, my life's been in a total blackout
I need a sign, it's been a long time since I last saw things clear and white
Is this the only life we have?
Well I guess I'm fucked anyway.
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5. |
Betrayal, In Place
01:33
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I should have known
I thought I could escape
Quicksand of distrust
Pulls me in again
Just when I thought
That I was safe inside this place
I watch it collapse before me again
Denying the past
An addictive mistake
The faces change
The curse stays the same
I should have known
This circle never breaks
I should have known
This pain never fades
So save your breath
You feed the same
Somehow it's still me who walks in shame
So i'll walk away
Another stab wound on my back
Somehow it's still me who's facing regrets.
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6. |
Disconnect
02:21
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You see me yet I'll remain unseen
You hear me yet I'll remain unheard
Holding back the tears, repression of self
Creating projections to mask it
Deep down inside there's me
And I'll hide me passionately
From narrow minds, from shallow hearts
From your "love", immersed in lies
I'll hide me cause I just can't feel you
And everything you've abandoned and left behind
I'll embrace them all
When they're left to rust and collect dust
They'll shine bright in my heart
So that's where I'll be
This shell you see isolates me
So far away from all of you and everything you do
Distant and apart under the same roof
So far away from you
In my own little world
In this disconnect
In this solitude
I'll hide me.
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7. |
Entertainers Union
02:56
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We'll gather the leftover joy
In someone else's laughters
We lie, they laugh
Left facing broken mirrors
When they're gone
Crooked lullabies for their deaf ears
Selfless tricks for their blind eyes
How much longer do you think
We can wear this poisonous smile?
How much longer we can live
Feeding emptiness posing as clowns?
We're sinking deeper
And those laughs won't last
It's already hurting
Hiding behind this mask
We'll be crucified to isolate
Choose between social death
And bleeding in this pretend
It is us that are dying either way
This is how I feel
No longer can I hide what's real
This is how I feel
No longer can I let them feed
I'll serve them no more.
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8. |
Our Last Dance
03:02
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I wanted to be the one
The painter of that picture
You had in your mind
With a heart all shriveled up and dried
Scared to love, scared of love
Attempting to be a couple
Under dim lights
Where all the lights died
I'm stranger to this dance
Somehow so tired and worn out
Playing all the wrong songs
At the wrong places and wrong times
Love could save us both
But I guess I'm beyond saving now
And early death and you came late
So let this be our last dance
As we dance and scream in great harmony
We'll never be
This is how I show you my scars
How I bled out all the love I got
And if we're together somehow
We'll be forever lost.
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9. |
Strangers
04:24
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Restless soul
It takes just one glance
And you can't wipe that
Grimace off your face
Hollow-hearted smiles you hide behind
Are not enough to hide that pure disgust
This stream, it overcomes, you end up stranded
Deserted shores: Closest thing to a home
Patience running dry
Your time is running out
Restless soul
Now you're all alone
How naive you were to think
That was your song?
As you watch those harbors you thought so safe
Collapse one by one
Before your eyes
You finally realize the light
That's going off inside
Feels like a curse in disguise
Patience running dry
Your time is running out
So take another look
Cause this is a part of you
And you're a part of this
But you can't quite fit
You're "broken", a stranger
So same yet so different
Strangers
This is our cross to bear
Strangers
Outside is where we belong.
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10. |
Insomnia
01:04
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Just give me one moment
To respire and catch my breath
There's a never-ending war inside my head
Never at peace with myself
War drums resonate in my chest
Endlessly haunting me while I'm yearning for sleep
Head against the wall for one piece
From that sacred peace
Just for once it's the silence I need
Don't wanna hear the birds sing
Just one moment
Free from those whispers and screams
Just one moment
I guess they will never leave.
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11. |
Lost Days
03:01
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These are the shortest days
Followed by the longest nights
Waiting for the sunrise
A sun that never shines
As the lights of despair creeping in
I remain untouched by the rest again
Some kind of paralysis of soul
Something I've never tasted
And it's getting harder to see it all clear
It's getting harder to suppress this growing anger
These are the wasted days
Followed by the sleepless nights
These demons inside my mind
Got the best of me, I'm left to rot
And I'll lay the blame on fate
Hence my self-destructing ways
Asking: "If it'll wash the pain away
What's the difference between sleep and death?"
It's getting harder to walk the same paths
It's getting harder to hold together these pieces
Losing hope, losing love
Losing faith, losing sleep
Losing days, losing control
A slow march every day
To a meaningless grave
I can't live like this
I'll settle for anything that'll keep me sedated
I can't live like this
This rising sun should mean something
These are the lost days
These are my lost days
These demons in my head
They stole my everything
Now I'm taking it all back
I'm taking my life back.
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12. |
Exile
06:56
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No more searching, I've seen enough ruins
No more hiding, no haven left that's solid
I'm just a ghost wandering
In these solitary streets
Empty and gloomy, mirroring me
From the cracked sidewalks leaks a story
I'm just a ghost wandering
As I get lost in these streets, I get closer to me
These places pass through me
Again I fall with solitude by me
When every face becomes the same
Solitude is my friend
A blessing and a curse
Everything I've ever had
In this ocean of distrust
Darkness is a Nile
When a home is non-existent
My soul's trapped in a state of exile
So I'll sink to deep and sing the same songs
Banished from the sky, in my niche for one
"I am the dead one, who won't accept death
I am the hateful one, trying to find love again
I'm here where I'm not, this is a life I must accept
I'm the unwanted one, I'll make sure you never forget
Fuck you for hating, full of spite I will survive
Fuck you for hating, full of spite I will survive
Fuck you for hating, full of spite I will survive
Fuck you for hating, full of spite I will survive"
I never thought that I would sing this song
But now I see that we can never truly belong
I never thought I would live this life
I've been mourning since the day my innocence died
This is the story of a ghost in a skin
Since the day I was born, everything I've every been
This is the story of an exile
And it will end the way that I write
"I will live more than you let me,
I will be more than you let me."
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Mevzu Records is a Istanbul based DIY omnifarious punk label founded 2018.
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